Hey Gang! See my first new piece of art in a long time above? i named it Circus Peanut. It just reminds me of one. : )
i know. i’ve been away for a while. It seems impossible that it’s been 3 months, but it’s true! 84 days since my last blog post and a bit longer that all this drama began.
i use the term, “drama” lightly, because, while there were many times i was scared to death for my health, in the end i think i will be fine – sometime soon i hope!
Here’s what happened;
Back in late march i started feeling like maybe i pulled my right hamstring. i had been painting windows in my new studio and probably overdoing it, so i wasn’t crazy-shocked. i used the R.I.C.E. method a few days and got no relief. It was actually getting worse. It was weird. But then one night i woke up at 3am and couldn’t feel my entire right leg. It was not wonky sleeping or pins and needles. It was DEAD. i was panicky and rubbing it for ages til some sensation started coming back. And when it came back, it was as though someone was stabbing me with an ice pick. i turned on the light because i was certain i must be bleeding. But i wasn’t. Alrighty then, i thought. This is not a hammy. This is nerve related.
Next day we hit the ER. And without giving you the entire play by play up til the present, let’s just say that my ER trip has been one of 3 since then, along with 3 MRIs, a head CT, 3-4 xrays, more prescription pain meds than i can count, plus appointments with specialists in Infectious Disease, Neurology, Rheumatology, Orthopedics, Chiropractics. i had no space left for needles in my arms from all the blood draws. The pain was so bad that i couldn’t move, literally, on a few different days. i also have had fuzzy vision, numb hands and feet, and all kinds of other weird stuff. Again, this feels boring enough already, so i’ll spare you the laundry list.
SOOOOOO, i dropped off the planet. i couldn’t sit at my desk for long, so only the mandatory work was getting done. (i wrote/illustrated a new doodle book for girls!! Thanks goodness you can doodle from bed or the couch!!!) And did i mention i’ve been sleeping AGAINST MY WILL – a lot. Thanks ya much pharmaceuticals!!!
The conclusion seems to be (after many blessed negative MRIs of spine, leg and brain) that my problem is more of a mechanical nature, and all the peripheral issues maybe were just the results of a body under extreme stress, chronic nerve pain and muscle spasms. The day the neurologist prescribed nerve meds….ah, what a day. Mom was coming to drive me to all my appointments because i can’t drive myself. 1) It’s too painful to sit in the seat and operate the pedals with my affected leg. 2) narcotics + driving= bad 3) i never knew when a spasm would come on and send me spiraling. So, no. No driving for me yet. ANYWAY, mom was sitting in the neurologist waiting room with me and i was about to pass out from the pain of sitting in the chair. Tears were falling off my cheeks. SO embarrassing. They let me go into an empty exam room to lie down. It was pretty intense. i left with a scrip for nerve meds and i’ve been doing a little better since. Still lots of pain and no driving or walking much, but muscle spasms have largely left the building.
All things said, smart money is on chronic piriformis syndrome, which i never heard of before a month ago, but now have been hearing LOTS of people have. Crazy. Ok, maybe not lots of people….but enough people. Google CHRONIC Piriformis Syndrome. It’s different than the occasional flare up kind. OUCH. So, you know. That’s where i’ve been : )
i’ve had many low days fearing very bad things that could be wrong. i’ve had many tearful days of pain akin to non-stop active labor contractions (if those were all up and down your leg) – or, as i described to my husband, the feeling of a charley horse that NEVER eases up. UGH. But, now that we are fairly sure all the big scary diagnoses have been ruled out, i am doing my best to manage my pain, suck it up a little, lean on the nerve meds and do lots of stretches, exercises and chiropractic adjustments to get my old life back again.
First on my agenda is to make up for lost time working!!! KIDS, you are gonna see a lot of big sales and fun offerings as i try to make up for lost time. i sure would appreciate any shares and word of mouth referrals you can offer. i can’t tell you how much i would. : )
So!! Yep. That all happened and continues to happen, but life moves on. i am certainly very lucky compared to so many others in this world. So no more posts about this speed bump. But i wanted to tell you all why i went AWOL.
i can’t wait to get back in touch with all of you and will be making art of all types – many types i can make from a reclining position!!! So watch out!!